When I observed
Self,
when I looked into
who I really am,
when I became
Self,
a sense of dualityshowed up
for me from time to time like this: there seemed to be not one but
two of me.
Really.
How so? How is there two of me? How can there be two of
me? Here's how:
I get
who I really am.
So that's me. But if that's the me
I really am,
then who's the me who gets the me
I really am?
There seem to be two of me: me, and the me who gets me.
Are there really two of me? Or does it only seem this way
because my inquiry into
who I really am
is naïve, immature, half baked, incomplete?
I've resolved this matter for myself. My inquiry is
complete. There are two of me.
These two of me are experiential distinctions. By this I mean
they
show up
for me over here in my experience. Yet if you look at me,
you won't see directly how they
show up
for me unless I speak them, in which case you can listen them
directly ie you'll see them directly in your listening.
Furthermore, I assert when you observe
Self,
when you look into
who you really are,
it's likely you'll experience the same two distinctions, the same
two of you. I assert the experience of two of you for you will
be the same experience of two of me for me. I'm saying these
experiential distinctions of two of me aren't mine per se.
Neither are they yours, for that matter. They
show up
for me and they
show up
for you. There's nothing personal or proprietary about them.
The me I say I am when I say "I" ie this "I"
I say I am, is something which
shows up
for me but isn't
who I really am.
Yet this "I" is real for me in my experience. It's
an experiential distinction of
who I am
for myself. It's a reference point I am for myself, if you
will.
Saying this "I" is a reference point I am for myself, then
saying "But this 'I' isn't
who I really am",
doesn't invalidate it either.
Who I really am
is the space in which the events of my life occur. And in this space in
which the events of my life occur, this "I"shows upjust like any other event.
So the space in which the events of my life occur is the me
I really am,
and the "I" I am is
the reference point I have for myself. Notice this "I", this
reference point I have for myself, only
shows up
for me, whereas the space in which the events of my life occur, the me
I really amshows up
for everyone.
These are the two me's. Ergo they're the two you's. These
are the two experiential distinctions of
who you are.
Because you're a human being, the existence of the one
implies the other. One isn't better than the
other. Both are authentic. Two of you is just
what's so
I assert making these two experiential distinctions of
who you arecome alive and being clear about each of them, is the
start of mastery.
