Moving on to whatever's
next
is easy for me when there's momentum in my life, when there's momentum
I can ride, when there's momentum which carries me.
When I've invented
a future worth living
into,
a future which thrills me, a future which excites me, a future which
lights me up, a future which drives me out of bed early in the
morning and keeps me up late at night, it comes with its own momentum,
a momentum which carries me along. So when I'm living from
a future I've invented which
is worth living into,
there's not much I need to do to move on to whatever's
next
because I move on to whatever's
next
in (which is to say I'm carried on to whatever's
nextby) the process of Life itself. By the time I've
committed
my canoe to the rapids, I've already made the big decisions needed to
get me into the optimal flow position. There's no stopping now. What's
more pertinent is I don't want to stop now. Being in the
optimal flow position of Life is the guiding principle of everything I
do. In particular, it was my raison d'etre for riding the
momentum which got me here, and from now on it's my raison d'etre for
riding the momentum of a
future worth living into.
Having ridden the momentum which got me here, actually isn't the topic
of this conversation. From now on riding the momentum of a
future worth living into,
isn't the topic of this conversation either. Neither is moving on to
the
next
thing when I'm thrilled and excited and lit up about whatever's going
on right now. Rather, the topic of this conversation is moving on to
the
next
thing when I'm neither thrilled nor excited
nor lit up about whatever's going on right now. In such
times, change can't come fast enough for my liking. These are the times
when I'll trade anything for whatever's going on right now
... anything. In times like these I can't move on to whatever's
next
by riding the momentum.
Why
is this? Simple: it's because in the times when I'm neither thrilled
nor excited nor lit up about what's going on right now, there
isno momentum. And when there's no momentum in my
life, it's never consistent with a life I love.
In the absence of momentum when I'm neither thrilled nor excited nor
lit up about what's going on right now, I move on to whatever's
next
through pure avoidance, through sheer escapism. And even when I can
avoid whatever's going on right now, even when I can escape whatever's
going on right now and move on to something preferable, it only brings
a momentary respite. Sooner or later, whatever it was I couldn't put
far enough and fast enough behind me, looms up to be confronted and
dealt with again. It seems at best I can only temporarily delay
confronting it. But I can never delay confronting it enough, or put it
far enough behind me that it doesn't ever loom up to be confronted
again. The dragon simply lies in wait for me. And oh boy! does that
dragon have all the
patience
in the world, or what?! It will wait and wait and wait ...
It will wait for me forever. It will wait and wait and
wait until I boldy and audaciously turn to face it, confront it, and
finally unceremoniously slay it.
If I've learned anything at all about what it takes to live into a
future of my own
creation,
it's that I can't do it (which is to say Life disallows me
doing it) as an avoidance of, or as an escape from, a present I'm
living now which I don't want to be living. I finally figured out Life
has no interest in what I want and don't want (as
Werner Erhard
may have said).
If I've learned anything at all about what it takes to move
on from a present I'm living now which I don't want to be
living, into a
future of my own
creation,
it's I can only move on when I have the present I'm living now which I
don't want to be living, be
totally OK
with me.